On Love's Arrival & Departure

13 Things I Know To Be True - Part 1

Prayer heals
God exists
God is love
God loves me
I'm not perfect
Newsflash
No one is
I'm a work in progress
This journey is on-going
Your negativity is toxic
It destroys love
It hurts you then me
Forgiveness frees you
Compassion heals me

A COACH THAT IS ALL KINDS OF WRONG

Yesterday I was judged and made to feel that I was all kinds of wrong and unworthy of anyone's time, consideration or professional courtesy  by one of my coaches. What he found wrong with me was that:

I "mother" people  ['cause being kind and thoughtful was wrong]

I worry too much  [asking that you text when you're running late or a no show is wrong] 

I say "I'm sorry" too much  [so next time I step on you I'll say something else]

I allowed myself to grieve for far too long  [Wow! I didn't know grief had a timeline]

I didn't have skin cancer in 2008  it' all in your head [So I guess the biopsy & subsequent treatment I endured was all a fake huh?]

I needed to explain why I took a job where I sat all day instead a lower paying one where I was more active.    [Seriously???  Do you not realize you're my employee]

I only need to look at myself in the mirror to see what my problem is…"  [This negative mantra has come up in our last 2 calls as well.]

There was 1 more thing I was being "wrong" about, but by then I'd begun to emotionally shut down.

Oh yeah, the last and 9th judgment was that I "shut down" when I'm being challenged. How about that. I shut up and shut down when I'm being judged, shamed, insulted and rejected for where I currently am in my process.  

So if you stumble onto this post, because you're trying to figure out how to find a good coach. the next post will show you what a good one really is  Otherwise you can continue reading this post and learn how to stay away from a crazy one from day 1.

Positive Health Coaching

Moving from shame & guilt to wholeheartedness

Global Warming?

Last week it was snowy & 13F. Today it was sunny & 63F. Things that make you go Hmmm.

Tango de Mi Amor

 
If you enjoy the music from this first video then you'll love the playlist I've put together for myself. In the meantime, I keep affirming that I WILL dance like this one day! I've seen people in their 80's dance a tango, so I know that with the right partner I can dance forever.  :)

A Sensuous Tango Playlist on youtube
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLhBcHQTc1oyauTQJdo99GTLk19vlk9qB4

I knew I loved you...

A slow gentle fall

 

North and South (BBC-2004) has been one of my favorite miniseries that evokes a time and place long gone, where people fell in love in a slower, gentler, more modest and profound way.  

Much Needed R&R

Mom's normally have luxury time.... Luxury time is when you get to do whatever you want. This weekend I get to have luxury time. No responsibilities. No task list. No shopping or errands list. NOTHING! Just me and whatever my little heart desires.

So what is my desire this weekend?  Well, what I really want I'can't have. That's something for a post on another blog. for this blog... is just being able to be 1 with nature so I'll definitely take long quiet walks on the beach. Hopefully one in the morning and one at night. If it's not too windy then I'll sit on the sand for awhile. I hear its going to be in the teens so I'll bring a down throw with me to keep me warm. Then I'll meditate while sitting there and visualize what I want to have or experience in my life this year. And to heat things up when I'm bored I've brought 50 Shades of Grey with me.

The rest of the time I'll hang with the girls and catch up. Should be fun.